Does Any Of This Make Sense?I faltered @ 7:16 p.m. on 07-21-02
Last night I was talking to my friend Jennifer, about someday getting away from the stress. I was saying how I wish I could just disappear to a place that doesn't know me. A place everything could be new. It wouldn't be tainted by the past, but full of hope for what can be. I could have real friends, the kind that would always care...
I would feel full of peace, because nothing could hurt me. A place where my kids could be safe, a place where sickness doesn't seem to exist. I could be in love forever without a broken heart... It would be near the beach...
No more worries, no more death, no more anger. I would finally feel safe, I would finally be home.
I know none of that sounds logical, but thats how I wish it could be. Life really seems to suck lately...Family getting sick...My daughter having febrile seizures...Not much seems for real right now. Jennifer is 6months pregnant and is high risk. I ask her how the baby is everytime she calls. She had a miscarriage not quite a year ago...and she really wants this baby. This year just seems more scary...Sometimes I just wish I could take a break from thinking about everything.
I wish I could go to my dream place.