I don't really write here anymore, just figured I'd update about whats been going on in my life this past year. I am 23 now, I had a boyfriend Luke for about a year and a half. We broke up in late October, I'm doing okay about that surprisingly. I know I was an emotional mess about past relationships, that I sobbed about in here. I guess I've grown up, or maybe toughened up.
The kids are both good. L.K. is in kindergarten right now, he seems to like it a lot. He's doing so well too, I'm very proud of him. Avi has gotten so big, and she's very smart for her age. She could proably hold her own in kindergarten, but for the moment we'd settle for headstart...Hopefully soon.
Now for the hard part.......
September17 2004, Rosetta died. About a month prior She was told that she didn't have much time left. To be honest that was pretty hard to accept. I knew it would happen one day, but I kept telling myself that one day was years away. I kept right on telling myself that until she died. My brother, Bryan, her mom, and her siblings were there with her when she died. She had been released from the hospital earlier that day, so I believe she waited until she was home.
It still hasn't really sunken in yet that she's really gone, not sure if it ever will. I always thought that with these sort of things, pain and grief would be immediate. In actuality for me it comes at random times. I miss her, things aren't the same without her. Thanksgiving wasn't the same, Christmas wasn't the same. She was only 37, and should have had more holidays. I considered her my sister, someone that I wanted to be like when I get older. She was such a cool chick.
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all words © Jennifer L. Bey, 2003.