RamblingsI faltered @ 9:21 a.m. on 11-28-2001
Well Austin remembered our anniversary but he still treated me like shit. He sounded upset when he called so I asked him what was wrong, and he yelled at me. Later he told me that he only did that to see if I would yell back. Bullshit. He does it every anniversary so I think we will forget about anniversarys from now on. For that matter lets forget about Mothers Day too, and my birthday. Those are just days that make me sad and bitter now, thanks to my beloved boyfriend. What really fucks with my head is that I never say any of this to him, and I should. Ew I don't think I want to talk about thay anymore, so I will change the subject now. My 16 year old is supposed to move down here from Massachusetts, but it may not happen now. It my brother would have to go up there to try to get custody,
instead of Joey just coming down here and then bro getting custody. Apparently Ma has jurisdiction and theres not much we can do. my bro can't go up there to get him because he can't afford to miss work. What we're going to try to do is see if bro up North can relinquish custody back to my sister. This might work because she already lives down here, and she can then give custody to bro down here. I guess it would be easier for her to do that since she is Joey's mom. I still am not sure if it will work. I hope so Joe deserves to have a normal life. Lately all he does is sleep and smoke his ciggaretts. If he comes down here he can go back to highschool and make friends, and do things boys his age are supposed to do. In a way my motive for wanting him to be here might be selfish because I also want him here so I won't be so alone. He is only 3 years younger than I am. Maybe being around someone close to my age will bring me back to reality a little bit.