R.I.P my puppyI faltered @ 9:28 a.m. on 01-11-02
My dog Lucky died this morning. He was hit by a car. Jim had found him at the end of the driveway near the road. Lucky Never leaves the property, why would he now? Why now would he go wondering off? Lucky was a good dog, a friendly, gentle dog. How could this happen to such a sweet dog. The first time he wanders off he gets hit. I loved Lucky, b ut lately I haven't acted like it. I haven't paid much attention to him the last couple years. I didn't want to love any of our pets, because it would hurt more when they eventually would run away or die. Well I distanced myself from Lucky, and it still hurts like hell. I feel so guilty, I should have petted him more, and played with him more. Lately it seems everything or everyone is dieing. X-mas eve my cat died. New Years day my moms friend died. Monday an old online friend died of cancer. No matter how much you care about a pet, or a friend, or family, there will come a time when they will leave you. I have b een so paranoid lately that everyone I love is going to die. It feels like it's true. I need to start appreciating everyone more, I need to make the time I spend with them count. I don't really know what to say now, nothing is comimg out right. I gotta go now. I love you Lucky, and I'm sorry.