That sad feeling.I faltered @ 9:04 a.m. on 07-22-02
I can't stop crying. I don't know whats wrong with me, or why I'm crying. I've been crying off and on since 6:30 this morning. I wonder if my mom thinks I'm a nutcase, cause I'm just sitting here at the computer with tears streaming down my face.
It's like I don't want to end this sad mood, or I can't allow myself to. About 15 minutes ago I came across a diary....it was so beautiful. The girl...her mom died recently of cancer. It hurt reading it..but I couldn't stop. A part of me wants to never read that kind of pain again, never wants to see how close to home that hits. A part of just wants to stay in denial forever where it's safe.
I think I will add her to my buddylist, because it kind of makes me feel not so alone. She is so brave.