Paranoid.I faltered @ 8:44 a.m. on 08-13-02
I haven't been sleeping well lately. Ever since Avi had that seizure back in June, I've been very paranoid. Everytime she takes a nap, I check on her every few minutes to makes sure she doesn't feel warm. At night whenever she makes any movement I wake up. I am always afraid that something will happen to her. Sometimes I wonder if she really will grow out of the febrile seizures...or if this will be an ongoing thing. Will I be scared everytime she gets a fever forever? This is something that's really fucking with my head, because the doctors say she'll grow out of it...but....I am having hard time accepting that.
Both the kids are loving daycare, which is relieving. I always hated school, and being away from my mom. I was a very clingy child, and didn't like being away from my mom for too long. It's good that the kids are adjusting so well, now I don't have to worry about them being like me.