I was feeling really sick yesterday, and ended up taking some cold tablets. Everytime I take those things I get drowsy, and when I feel drowsy I get depressed. Which was why I whining in an entry yesterday, and in Joe's guestbook. It's never fun being sick.
Rosetta has not been doing too well lately. The night before last she was up all night crying because she had so much pain in her hip and back. They took her to the doctor yesterday, and ended up paying over $400 on medication that apparently medicaid doesn't cover. I wish I could wake up and it could all be a dream. All of it. Rosetta's cancer, and Avi's seizures. I wish everything could be okay again, but nothing will ever be okay again. Rosetta will always have cancer, and I will never again sleep a full night without making sure Avi is breathing. The paranoia will just continue to get worse, until there's nothing left to smile about. Why does life always have to suck so bad?
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all words � Jennifer L. Bey, 2003.
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